Decorating my Christmas wreath last week in kitschy 1950’s and 60’s ornaments brought nostalgic and bittersweet family memories to mind.
There is a German word that best describes my thoughts that day. We don’t have an English word for it. The word is: sehnsucht.
Sehnsucht represents thoughts and feelings about all unfinished or imperfect facets of life , paired with a yearning for ideal alternative experiences. Described as an individual’s search for happiness while coping with unattainable wishes. Such feelings accompany both positive and negative feelings. -Wikipedia
It is sometimes felt as a longing for a far-off country, but not an identifiable place. Furthermore, there is something in the experience which suggests this far-off country is very familiar and indicative of what we might otherwise call “home.”
Sehnsucht is one of those German words with layers of meaning that the English “longing” or “yearning” can only hint at … a deep and intense feeling of something missing … something you once had or never had … an emptiness … a craving … a desire … a spiritual, psychological, almost physical need … that’s Sehnsucht … -Willow Manor Blog
I’m going to put an audio book on, get cozy and find something to paint. Happy Christmas decorating!